Thursday, April 29, 2010

kalau terjatuh, nak buat macam mana?

aku kerap terjatuh :
jatuh cinta
jatuh sakit

biasanya, jatuh cinta dulu
diikuti jatuh sakit.

p/s : setahun yang lepas, saya dah post yang ini. selepas 365 hari (lebih sedikit), nampaknya post ini masih applicable, masih relevant.

itu cuma tipu belaka

malam ini aku semacam baru tersedar
usia itu benar benar hanya satu (atau dua) nombor sahaja.
(kalau masuk tiga nombor, mungkin kau patut telefon Majalah 3. boleh interframe dalam dokumentari warga Malaysia paling tua)

kad pengenalan boleh menipu
bila buat kira kira (hey, ilmu hisab aku hebat, tahu?)
termaktub umur sudah menjangkau 30
tapi maturity level kau seperti budak 12 tahun
yang mimpi basah pun masih belum.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

chants to self

if someone is really really worth it,
regardless of what they say, and what they do,
and what they get up to that doesnt involve you,
hold on.

hold on, and make sure none of your feelings fade away.
once it goes missing, susah nak cari balik.

ingat k sha?
sabar ok?

(hey saya ada rasa macam nak deactivate facebook sekejap lah! ada facebook pun bikin panas je. i need ketenangan jiwa. sekejap pun jadi lah)

Euphonious 2010

I'm almost a week late.
But hey! Since when have i cared all that much about punctuality pun huh?

I went, clad in yellow, in support of :

They were every bit as awesome as i thought they would be.
Watching the housemates up there dan rakan rakan yang lain, it made me so proud to be their groupies.
Rasa macam kawan dengan artis! (woot woot! hahahaha)

It felt good to watch the whole event from the audience seat btw.
Rasa this sense of freedom and liberation.

Anyway, I havent gotten the finals video yet. It's with Iylia, malas nak cari thumbdrive ambil (memang dasar pemalas! bilik tiga langkah je pun nak malas jugak! hish)

I think they achieved something magical that night. And i left that night with the biggest smile on my face.

Kami kami yang dah resemble athlete athlete rumah kuning,
dengan tak malu nya went to stand kat tengah tengah alam with the poster yang Maria made.
Sambil nyanyi jerit jerit.
The emcee siap asked us to lompat lompat behind her while she asked for people to vote for Salmah&The Swingers.
Groupies tegar yaww.
(ala takpe la. apa point jadi senior kalau tak blh nak muka tebal no? :P)

Lahai lahai sekelian, you have no idea how amazed i am with you guys.
Terima kasih atas magic yang dikongsi.

I loved last weekend.
Semua cinta hati came back to UTP.
My comot , Ali, Zalikha Anas, Nurul Aain, Adreen, Ikram, Nyet, Chep.
Was good to have everyone under the same roof again.

Monday, April 26, 2010

the next time you want to be bitchy, remember this

There was a wise man who moved to the city of Akbar.
No one took much notice of him, and his teachings were not taken up by the populace.
After a time, he became the object of their mockery and their ironic comments.

One day, while he was walking down the main street in Akbar,
a group of men and women began insulting him.
Instead of pretending that he had not noticed, the wise man turned to them and blessed them.

One of the man said :
Are you deaf too? We call you the foulest of names and yet you respond with sweet words!

We can each of us only offer what we have,
came the wise man's reply.

-taken from 'Like The Flowing River'

THIS is exactly why i love Paulo Coelho.

Oh, and I'm sorry for not updating this measly blog as religiously as i would have liked.
Truth is, i'm trying to compile my writings into a book.
So most of the things that i write go in there instead of here.
(An angan angan that i feel the need to accomplish for the sake of learning and discovering something new about myself.)

Bear with me.
I'll be back.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

my knight in monkeysuit ;)

tepat 4.22am,
my journey wouldve completed another cycle.

tak tahu whether i should cry with joy
or just conventionally cry.

eh eh eh.

this time years ago
i embarked on a journey
that made me the happiest girl on planet (albeit briefly).

and from that journey,
i have learnt more than i thought i was capable of.

i learnt that there are so many lessons in life that cant be taught.
i learnt that rules sometimes come with exceptions.
i learnt that your heart remains the strongest guide you have.

and most importantly,
i learnt that love, is enough.

screw materials, and screw emotional baggages.
if you sincerely love,
and your love is returned just as sincerely,
that it radiates every inch of your life,
and put the sparkle in your eyes
and shines the darkest days ahead of you.

then, THAT, is enough.

dzulhazmi shaarin, thank you for these lessons. :)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

when i think about you

you are
something that fills in my blanks

the punchline to my jokes
the chorus to my songs
the dimple to my smile
the sparkle in my eyes

you are
the missing piece of my puzzle

Thursday, April 15, 2010

life is not a hollywood movie

Have you ever wondered kenapa you feel miserable and have bloody murderous thoughts at times?
it's not because the world is out to get you.
it's not because semua orang nak cari pasal dengan you.

REALITY CHECK kejap please!
you're doing it to yourself.

ive explained the rule of karma dah berapa juta kali dah i rasa.
nak berbuih dah mulut.
(or, to be more politically(?) correct, dah carpal tunnel dah type pasal karma)

ok. i faham you tgh serabut sekarang.
you have banyak gila problem.
and you sakit hati when you see that everyone else is getting on with life as if dekat luar tu semua rainbows and butterflies je.
and you feel left out, because your life sucks and you feel like hiding in a hole until everything gets better.
and the notion of how life goes on, leaving you behind feeling perasaan perasaan yang slightly short of suicidal, that sucks big time, i know.

yes yes i know.

but the more you run away from it.
the more you rebel against it.
the worse it'll get.

as you all know,
i was feeling dreadfully sorry for myself a few weeks back.
in the midst of complaining about my problems, i tak sedar that the person i was complaining to tu mcm ada problem yang lagi banyak and lagi lah in dire need of help sebenarnya.

dwelling on a problem doesnt make it go away.
being bitter to people around you, that wont solve your problem jugak.

think about it, at the time that you need to have moral supports from people around you, what good would it do if you push all these people out?

memang in the end kau end up rasa morally defeated ah.

dah dah.
jangan repeat mistake i.
and jangan lari from your problem jugak.
kata russell peters, BE A MAN!
face it yaww.

teruk teruk problem kau, banyak lagi orang kat luar tu yang ada problem lagi teruk.
so stop feeling sorry for yourself,
and do something about it for a change.


Tuesday, April 13, 2010

this is why you shouldnt get any tattoo

life is meant to be filled with problems and obstacles.
kalau takde problem langsung, itu kita panggil afterlife (provided that you get a spot in heaven lah).

problems will constantly arise.
if you handle them well, and find a solution before it's too late,
you might get some time to put your feet up and relax before you need to deal with the next problem.

untuk procrastinator macam saya,
memang tak best lah.
problem yang tiga bulan lepas tak settle lagi,
suddenly ada6345654758 problem baru that needs to be solved.

Sebab tu orang cakap jangan tangguh kerja,
degil, tak nak dengar,
sekarang kan dah terpaksa cakap 'I told you so' dekat batang hidung sendiri.

It seems that all i do these days are talk about my problems.
I bet korang penat nak baca.

It sucks though, having to handle all kinds of masalah.
It sucks even more when the one person who never fails to make me forget all about my problems is 2 hours away from me (1 hour plus kalau bawak kereta 180km/h).

Im supposed to be finishing my poster for my Final Year Project punya presentation.
And even though it's supposed to be completed, and printed and laminated,
I haven't even finished the bloody poster.
Instead, im googling random stuff.

I found this on the net and it seemed appropriate dengan tajuk perbincangan hari ini:

Ini adalah gambar gambar tattoos gone wrong.
You know, ive always wanted to have a tattoo of a butterfly on the nape of my neck.
If only it wasnt prohibited by Islam,
dah lama dah i ada rama rama terbang kat leher.

But i pretty much dah berhenti berangan ever since i saw these :

ok ok ok.
ini paling PHAIL sekali.

comel kaaaaaan.

Pesanan Kerajaan : Jangan buat tattoo dekat parlour yang dodgy. Unless kalau kau banyak duit spare nak buat laser removal in case anything goes wrong.

Pesanan I : Kalau nak sangat jugak buat tattoo, jangan ambik gambar susah susah Godzilla Ultraman la segala. Buat gambar orang lidi cukup. :)

Monday, April 12, 2010

soalan bodoh yang orang tanya

I'm not trying to say that I'm smart and that i ask smart questions.
(okay. maybe just a little. hehh)
But i cant comprehend how some people can ask the stupidest questions just because they think it's okay to sound stupid if you're doing it anonymously.

I'll let the questions do the talking.
I found this on and i couldnt stop laughing.
These questions are best read when you are high.


See what i mean?

Thursday, April 8, 2010

To Ina, Adreen and Noin

there were snows of flour

there were fabulous guitarists who forgot the chords to 'Happy Birthday'

and a not-so-awesome one who barely remembers the chords

there was the homemade bday cake with Ivan's lighter as a candle

there were the black and white housemates all covered in flour, cake and Sprite

kanak kanak comot in white

the couple who were the cause of the foodfight

my roommate and I

the birthday girl and I

birthday girl and roommate

all of us and the latecomers

Once again,

ive been doing this whole birthday wish on blog for five years now no?
ive nothing left to say that i havent yet said.
I love You, and i believe that is enough.
Tee hee.

And to the other two April babies,
we've missed you greatly.