Monday, April 18, 2011

the line has been disconnected

i dont know what to think.
i really dont know what to think.
but for once, i want to feel, and not think.

i dont know where this road is leading me to.

i dont know if im going to end up happily married to a guy that ive been in love with for the past 6 years.
or if that's not going to work out and that there is someone else out there who is going to make an honest woman out of me (plus 6 years worth of good memories to fall back on)
or if i'm never going to get married and adopt a bunch of cats instead.

i dont know.
and well, that's the whole point, isnt it?
not knowing but trying anyway.

but to what extend should you try?
how do you when to call it quits?
seriously, how do people know the location of that thin line between fighting and giving up that everyone is talking about?
I CANT SEE NO LINE!!

by the way, the light in my room is flickering.
it feels like an awful medieval discotheque lights.
and all it does is remind me of how lonely i feel.

p/s : im sorry, these days, ive gotten into the habit of not finishing my thoughts.

4 comments:

ram said...
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GGK said...

mmmm takde line kut,.... in realife semua in between are just blurry movement.

Merissa K. said...

i dont like blurry movement, i dont like gray areas.

hahaha.

how would you know anything for sure if there arent lines dividing things and feelings?

god.

GGK said...

Nothing is for sure tasha.

You make decision base on these grey area kan. You decide by judging which of which that have less 'sadness','pain','risk' and etc.... or which of which that have more 'untung','happiness','money' bla bla.

Lines are created by those who want to make easy decision ... Like a flip of a coin.

Hahahahahaha penangan livita honey di waktu pagi