How I Derive the Equation of an Elastic Heart

It started with a good intention paired with actions that do not reflect that intention.

It started in a place of uncertainty and double-guessing. It started with grasping around for something to hold on to.

It evolves, as everything does. 

Into a self-fulfilling prophecy. Into an awkward cycle of mistakes and lessons learnt. Into swapped shoes and many miles.

It evolves into something that realizes its full existence, but also realizes that existence itself is temporary. 

It blooms into a calm heart - a heart that only fears fear, and one that only opens itself to another calm open heart. 

It blooms into a recognition that presence can be felt in absence, and the only weapon you should use against the world is your beautiful smile.

My journey bloomed and it brought me to you.

Queen of Clouds

There hasnt been many days like this one. 

A bright day where people just gawk in awe at the sky (at the clouds and the non-clouds) for a long stretch of time.

I like to think of it as a hopeful day. A new start.

Where there are both a hopeful day and a hopeful soul, there will be a junction where the Universe will meet.

To get to the junction, one would have to walk past tests and temptations (because, annoyingly, the right way cant be an easy way), upon completion of which, clarity may then be had. 

And the night?

It was full of stars. 

P/s : What if I told you that YOU are my bright day?

Scared Animals

People are scared animals. 

We're afraid of changes and scared when things remain the same.

Scared of ending up exactly where we started but also scared of taking chances.

Now, i know you're scared. I am too. We can't run away from it because that's just our instincts as human. 

For what it's worth, I'd much rather be scared together with you, than to go down this road by myself. 

I am too little butter on too much bread, I am too many thoughts in too little head.(Tyler Knott)

Happiness is finding contentment in doing everything in moderation. It's in being delighted over an amazing sunset. It's in recognizing that life is too short for you to either be too upset when things go wrong or too excited when it goes your way.

It's in finding joy in giving. And it's in existing in such a way that you make it slightly easier for everyone you meet along the way. 

Kindness grows. They grow into happiness.

Guidelines for 2015

1. Dont be a maybe.

2. Dont be a man of flimsy handshakes.

3. Dont walk around without a clear conscience.

4. Co-exist because the world really doesn't revolve around you.

5. Only ask questions that you are ready to hear the answers to.

6. Dont feel good for having made a good plan. Feel good for having done a good act.

7. Work to become, not to acquire.

8. You can't customize the rules to fit your fancy. 

9. Be grateful when things are fully great.

10. And also when they're not.

Remember, 

"Everything is changed forever all the time"

Underneath It All

For most questions you might have, you would already have the answer for it. It could be deep down, it could be at a mid-range depth or it might have already surfaced waiting for you to recognize that it is the answer or solution youve been looking for. 

For my birthday, i wanted to try something different and face my fear of drowning. So i went diving. 

During the assessment, the one rule that keeps coming up was 'dont forget to breathe!' And 'remember to keep breathing'. You can imagine other variations that carry the same context. 

My practical pragmatic side tends to get annoyed when it comes to stating the obvious (though this is a habit that i constantly indulge in). 

It was only during my first dive that i came to the realization that when emotion kicks in and you're surrounded by unfamiliar setting, you tend to lose track of things you already know. It doesnt matter if it's common sense. Emotions do not take heed of logical reasonings, unfortunately.

So there i was kicking around in the water (half thinking i was gonna die, half amazed at the underwater beauty). I was unable to equalize and 'balance myself out'. Suddenly, something as natural as breathing becomes a completely alien concept. 

I also feel that's sort of what happens to me when i fall in love. When I lose control, answers i already have morph into questions again. (Half feeling like i was gonna die and half absolutely amazed at the undersurface beauty).

You and i, we can either get fixated on our fear or we can focus on the beauty. And breathe.

Remember to breathe.

"Don't be afraid of your fears, they're not there to scare you; they are there to let you know that something is worth it."