Wednesday, February 24, 2010

mommy mommy

i never thought i'd say this tapi here goes,
I cannot tengok my Mom's Facebook profile sebab dia dah private kan! Ish! Nak rindu comel comel pun tak blh. Haih.

I missed my mom today, simply out of the blue, really. And i didnt have that many pics of her. so i thot i'd stalk her Facebook page and look at her pics there. Tapi dia dah pandai main private. Hmph.

Serves me right for making the whole 'Facebook is for friends ma. I can talk to you guys at home. Guna je la ur FB to ckp with ur friends. Dont mix family and friends. Not a pretty business, that one' speech to her.

bottom point is, jangan eksyen eksyen.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

being in love is sort of like getting high

isnt it?

its dope. thats for starters.
okay okay hear my argument out.

realize that when you're in love (especially during the honeymoon period), you sort of become oblivious to any bad things that happen to you.
any little screw up that occurs, you simply brush it aside.
because you're insanely abnormally happy, you simply dont realize things that go wrong.

is that not just how people act when they are in a dopey state?
Like in Afroman's Because I Got High, his entire life was turned upside down, did that upset him? Hell no.
He laughed a rastafarian laugh and wrote a song about it.

And you sort of become extra emotional about things.
U become extra jealous, extra mushy, extra sensitive, extra horny, extra paranoid, extra friendly.

Now, tell me,
did i or did i not get that right?

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

saya perempuan, sumpah tak tipu!

baru baru ni, due to some unfortunate circumstance,
keperempuanan saya tercabar.

yes yes, saya tahu,
saya tak reti duduk cross kaki behind ankle,
and kalau lepak mamak, suara saya lah yang paling kuat.

and saya tahu jugak,
bila maki and bahan orang, vocab kutukan saya memang agung,
saya tak easily offended bila sang lelaki keluarkan cerita-cerita 'guys talk' mereka,
saya tahu saya pantang nampak perempuan hott rasa nak 'phewwwiittt' kuat kuat.

yes yes, saya tahu.

tapi that doesnt mean saya bukan perempuan.
anatomically, CONFIRM saya bukan lelaki.
baru lepas check tadi, saya takde scrotum.
betul, tak tipu.

bila saya beritahu kawan kawan (yang mostly semua nya lelaki) yang saya nak jadi perempuan,
saya kena bahan.

*jap jap off topic kejap*
orang kata, girls who smoke tak appear ladylike.
saya bantah! (ke, bangkang?)
perempuan2 dalam 50s hollywood movies smoked and they are the epitome of perempuan je. takde sorang pun nampak mcm androgynous or dyke lesbian.

serious tak blh terima kalau orang kata its ok for guys to smoke tapi its not ok for a girl.
apa logic nya? in terms of humanity, seriously kasi tau sikit apa logic statement tu.

ada risk for girls jadi mandul? lelaki pun boleh dapat erectile dysfunction.
saya tak terima argument tu. kamaan. kita orang pandai. kasi argument pandai sikit pls?
*off topic tamat*

ok. my point is, i could be like a conventional girl.
but all this while, ive been comfortable with guys being comfortable talking about stuff in front of me, even if topic tu adalah usually taboo untuk di discuss depan perempuan lain.

serious tak suka feeling bila orang mcm
'oh aku ada cerita baru! tapi tasha ada kat sini, segan lah nak cerita. nanti balik bilik aku kasi tau kau'.
serious tak seronok.

tapi in the midst of trying to fit in as one of the boys,
i got carried away.
and i guess it's about time i embrace the inevitable. hehh.

oh oh bila lah rambut nak tumbuh panjang.

p/s : oh oh kena beli byk skirts and dresses ni! haha

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

i feel like a million bugs

kalau jadi tukang kutip sampah aka garbageman dekat australia, blh dapat 30 dollars per hour.
bila malaysia nak kenang jasa abang abang alam flora kat sini macam tu jugak?
tak payah i jadi engineer.
boleh naik lori hijau tiap tiap hari.
tak main lah kau 3 series ni.
i lenyek pakai lori hijau just like a kereta kebal would,
hancur jugak beemer kau tu.


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

jom lompat bangunan sekarang?

So i searched for my name at and this is what came up when i typed Tasha :

a girl in love with life. someone who longs for love in her life. gets her heart broken often and in turn breaks other hearts to deflect the pain. but fun loving and easy to gain affection from.

wahahahaaaha. sounds like someone id like to get to know. LOL.

tak kelakar sebenarnya. (-_-")

After A While

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul.
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises

and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman,
not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

Veronica A. Shoffstal

Monday, February 1, 2010

rasa macam nak buat questionnaire. siapa nak tanya soalan sensitive, shoot sekarang!

Tagged by The Other Purple Butterfly ;)

1) Where is your cell phone?

somewhere on the window ledge. attention people, the reception in my room sucks. so chances are, even though im on the verge of dying, i wouldnt be able to call anyone. jadi, kalau saya mati, anda dipersilakan saman UTP. duit tu share share ok? :D

2) Relationship?
Pah! here, today. gone, tomorrow. when its there, its pretty much the best. but hey, you cant always have things your way kan? :(

3) Your hair?
is NOT SHORT ANYMORE! Whooooooppp! heheh.

4) Work?
I dont work. School sucks. Working sucks even more. The money is yum yum tho. Sigh, macam mana nak kaya without working uhh? (nak berangan rompak bank kejap, please dont kacau)

5) Your sisters?
can be pretty cute at times but most of the time, they annoy me sampai tahap cute cuma sampai level hantu raya sahaja.

6) Your favorite thing?
pen and paper.

7) Your dream last night?
havent slept, so havent had the chance to dream. but if i were to guess, i think it has something to do with Arsenal kicking MU's ass in last night's game (-_-")

8) Your favorite drink?
Bukan air mani.

9) Your dream car?
Kereta yang boleh terbang. Just the way i pictured cars in 2020 will look like when i was about 3 and a half years old. Tapi macam lambat lagi je nak ada.

10) Your shoes?
Saya tak suka pakai kasut. Biar barefoot. Kasi can kat cacing.

11) Your fears?
Having no one to talk to.

12) What do you want to be in 10 years?
A fairy godmother! Complete with wings, and a star shaped wand and stardusts! (macam best je! nak jadi fairy godmother yg MILF la! FGMILF! haha)

13) Who did you hang out with last weekend?
Kesayangan abadi.

14) What are you not good at?
Talking - dengan volume rendah.

15) One of your wish list items?
Escada Sentiment perfume. (bila bau rasa mcm kaki terangkat 3 inci dari tanah, lepas tu float around for approximately 7 seconds. to repeat the sensation, continue sniffing.)

16) Where you grew up?
Home, alongside the best childhood friends a girl with short hair could ever ask for (diorang suka main tarik rambut!)

17) Last thing you did?
Mengamuk dan cakap sorang sorang.

18) What are you wearing?
Nothing. Clothes are underrated. (bukan ayat pancing untuk perverts di luar)

19) What aren’t you wearing?
a magician's hat.

20) Your pet?
died. after eating a hamster. (wehh, berapa banyak kali mau kasi tau daa)

21) Your computer?
is too old school. tapi karang cakap dah sampai time nak ganti baru karang, merajuk, tak mau on. Ye lah wahai PC yang old school, kau lah yang paling gempak!

22) Your life?
is pretty awesome. ;) (bukan attempt nak buat kamu kamu jealous. heheh)

23) Missing?
the point.

24) What are you thinking about right now?
thinking of hiring a few bodyguards. suruh tolong pukul kan nyamuk, and tiupkan makanan panas sampai jadi sejuk. agak agak 3 orang cukup tak?

25) Your car?
Moe. Full name, moby. Has 'BABE' tattooed on his ass. Nicee. (dia tak gay, serious!)

26) Your kitchen?
is non-existant.

27) Your favorite color?
purple yaww.

28) Last time you laughed?
probably last night.

29) Last time you cried?
probably last night.

30) Love?
makes people tolerate the darndest things!

31) So who wants to share their ONEs?? How about?
i dont get this. but i dont like to share.

You ten unlucky people whom i'm tagging next :
1. Yaya
2. Inana
3. Maya
4. Ern Bern
5. Lincat (haa ambik kau semua housemate kena)
6. Ami
7. Fatul
8. Jepp
9. Johnny Depp
10. Anyone who has nothing better to do.

Tunggu apa lagi? Jawab la. Jawapan terbest akan dapat hadiah misteri! Cepat!

The Love of My Life.

Rest In Peace.

But the love shall stay etched;
here, there and everywhere.

Here's to our great collection of good memories.
To the dysfunctional relationship
and the dysfunctional breakups.
but hey, it works for us, didnt it?

I love you,
Cookie Monster.

p/s : I dah tampal poster Arsenal kat bilik. heheh.