Thursday, January 28, 2010

oh bulan!

wahai penghuni penghuni UTP sekalian,

cepat lah tidur..
semoga internet lebih laju tatkala anda semua sedang bermimpi.
saya benci kesiputan (or kekurakuraan) ini.

tidur ok?
sweet dreams!

yang benar,

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

bak datang!

Weh weh! Perasan tak!
Arsenal punya fans biasanya (BIASANYA ok? itu equivalent dengan USUALLY. bermakna, bukan all the time ok? ok?) sangat hebat critic team sendiri.

We love the team,
we have faith in the players,
but we are also, at the same time, realistic.

Among ourselves,
laju je nak kutuk kebangangan own goal own goal sekalian.
And betapa weak nya defense at times.

Tapi tapi tapi.
Kalau fan lain kutuk,
we will laju laju come to the rescue
(budget Superman padahal Wenger bukannya kenal pun kita!)

Kami realistic.

Bukan mcm fan sesetengah team tu.
Diaorang menang ke, kalah ke, main hebat ke, main macam gampang ke,
Kalau cerita mesti nak paling gebang.

Kata mereka, MU lah yang undefeatable tu (oops, terdisclose nama. sorry!). MU la yang selalu bawak balik piala.

Ah iye!
Humble much, folks?


p/s : see you this weekend!

dah balik UTP, confirm la kena start excessive blogging balik!

ya allah.
this is so silly.

i was bloghopping.
and randomly terjumpa the blog of this guy i used to know a loooong time ago.

back then, he was quiet a flirt.
walaupun at the time, dia ada gf.
he's sort of known for his lady-fetish.
and secara tak sengaja, for a brief moment, i sort of got sucked into a minor drama.
(tapi takde la bitchfight tarik tarik rambut ye)

long story la.

but i never so much as talked to his gf pun.
and i kinda stopped talking to him altogether.

adalah dengar update update about him and the gf via kawan kawan.
tapi setakat dengar je la, tak ambik port sangat pun cuz it has nothing to do with me sejak berzaman dah.

i heard from the little birds that some shit came up.
and that shit turned him into a real gentleman.
and he got married to the gf.

and as i mentioned before,
baru beberapa saat yang lalu, i came across both their blogs.

read their rants dated from yeaaaaars back,
and saw their pics together.

upon seeing their wedding pics (dan gambar yang lain lain),
i suddenly realized air mata dah menitik jatuh.
terharu gila babi seeing how loving they are now.
and how grown up they both seem.

to know that he is no longer the childish impish boy i knew,
and that he is now a man who is soooo in love and soooo responsible,
rasa macam 'oh wow, he finally found what he's looking for in life'.

and it made me so happy.
even though it doesnt have anything to do with me.

tonight, they made me realize that even the relationship with the craziest rollercoaster ride pun has the potential to be 'The Real Thing'.

Tolong jangan tanya if it's THAT time of the month, sebab menangis tiba tiba baca stranger punya blog. Terharu okay. This is a beautiful moment! Let me wallow in it.


Kepada Encik X dan Puan Y,
Though you guys may never read this, please note that i am touched by your love for each other.

Yang benar,
Fithri Natasha Merissa Kartika.

It hasnt been all that long, but you've been greatly missed

Today, i knew.

After the infinite amount of time that i have spent in agony, the realization has finally figured out how to velcro its way to my mind (of course, the heart still refuses to listen, but lets not talk about that now).

I know that all these while, i've been making excuses, because i was in denial.

I know that there's nothing left for me here anymore, no reason for me to linger around.

I know that all i have left are memories.

And i guess that would have to suffice.
And i have to move on, and leave this part of my life behind.
The short episode that we had the chance to embark on.

Because, we all know, that he's never coming back.
And that it'll never be the same again.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

nak berlagak sementara sempat

'nuff said.


lepas ni saya nak main version yang ini!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

dont say i didnt warn you!

it is extremely easy to fall in love with me.

in the beginning, you might be in denial and claim that being in my company is out of mere convenience.

but soon enough, you will realize that i'm like no other.
with me around, you get to do whatever it is that you've always wanted to.

in other words,
i liberate you.

be aware, though.

the romance will not last forever.
once you get too fixated in my embrace,
too mesmerized by my presence,
that is when i shall break your heart.

forgive me,
it isnt intentional.
im not doing it on the sole purpose of hurting you.

i'm doing it
because i can.

for i am money.

Saturday, January 9, 2010


I finally got my hands on this four books when i went on a book frenzy at MPH the other day.

I have plenty of things to update sebenarnya, but somehow, everything i typed seems inadequate. So the posts all remained unpublished.

And these days, i feel less need to flame morons and more need to vomit all these psychobabbles and talk about life instead.

I have come across so many weirdos and freaks this semester break than ive ever seen in my entire lifetime.

And i do feel the need to share it here, but i just cant figure out how.


Perhaps i should go on a holiday and get out of this writer's block phase.

Im going.

Friday, January 8, 2010


SHe told me that she is heartless.
I think that she is strong willed, independent, and hard-headed.
But she was not heartless.

SHe told me that she is heartless,
because she feels indifferent when confronted with the emotions of others,
and because she does not empathize.

I think it's bullshit.
I think her heart is warm and aglow.
I think she cares, more than she'll admit.

I dont think she is heartless.
And i like it that way.


Saturday, January 2, 2010

the revelations of 2009

1. In order to avoid bullshit splattering all over your windscreen of life (oh pelik nya metaphore!), all there is to hold on to is "dont do to others what you dont want to be done unto you". Percaya la. saya tak tipu.

2. Sometimes love can be right in front of you, but you are the one finding excuses to avoid it.

3. And sometimes, what is in front of you is not a lover, but more of an emotional tormentor. But you, YES YOU, are too busy being in denial to realize it.

4. Life makes more sense, and gives you less headache, when you dont spend your time agonizing over every little scrap of problems.

5. Having awesome friends (and by awesome, i mean those who doesnt judge you and those who will be there when you've just gotten your scholarship AND also when you are more miskin than the blind guy who collects money dekat Uptown Damansara) is equivalent to you being able to handle anything that life might inflict on you.

6. Feelings are confusing. Roll with it.

7. It IS possible to feel for more than one person. It is up to you what to do with it.

8. It seems that Manchester United fans received a MU fan handbook upon their christening. This can be seen from their scripted comebacks and arguments with non-MU fans.

9. This season is Arsenal's own goal season.

10. Awesome bands will always have performances in Singapore and skip Malaysia even though in terms of size, Singapore is just as big as Malaysia's toenail.

To be continued.

hello goodbye

the world is a magical place.
it is down to us to figure out the trick that is hidden under the sleeve.