Sunday, June 26, 2011

I will always love you, so go easy on yourself.

I know you don't want it to matter right now. That's why it matters the most.

I'm actually having one of the biggest writer's block I've ever had. I have tried approximately 74 times (this statistic is bound to be rigged with a pinch of exaggeration) to write a blog post, and failing ever so gracefully.

I am facing a huge loss.
And honestly saying, i dont know how to deal with it.
I go to class and read books and talk about life and humanity with my roommate in an attempt to fill the void, but a void becomes a void for a good reason.
Otherwise, it wouldve been filled with something else already.

Sometimes we live within memories, not realizing that memories are all we have.
Sometimes we get really good at distracting ourselves.
Sometimes we wish someone was here, and at others, we wish them the best.

Because after all,

you are expecting me to say something poignant that sounds deep and believable, arent you?
Come on,
you don't need me for that.
you don't need a random person on the net to tell you that everything is going to be fine in the end.
or that there's a very important reason for you to go through all that you've been through.

because deep down inside, you already know.

p/s : This one goes to Fasheeha Adnan, for getting me up from my lazy chair and out of my rut.


Anonymous said...

OMG dear!
Never thought u would put my name in your entry.
I'm so touched.
Thanks fithri natasha merissa kartika. =P

I've started reading ur blog in 2009 if I'm not mistaken and been in love with this violent violet volkswagen ever since.

I remember this one time u hadn't update ur blog for weeks and I checked it up everyday. Every single day, yeah literally. =)

Keep up ur good piece of work.


Merissa K. said...

Thank you for having faith in me :')