Thursday, February 26, 2009


baby, i used this photo of you and Mas as my screensaver at work.
Today, this guy came in and asked me to forward this pic to him because he said 'minah tu hot' and gambar tu lawa.
whats with the car and all.

i asked him why would i want to send him a personal pic of mine.
so he asked me who was it in the pic.

i told him it was my friend and my boyfriend.
dia terkejut sebab dia ingat saya tipu.

his last words were,
"ingatkan gambar artis luar negara tadi!"

bangga tak darlings berdua?

poem dulu dulu

She paints the walls of my heart .
Once in rainbow, now in black.

She filled me with feelings.
Once with joy, now with sorrow.

I couldn’t believe what she gave me.
Once EVERYTHING, now nothing.

And to think of what she is to me.
Once my backbone, now my burden.

And that is how it ends.
Once, I loved her.
Now, I don’t.

i wrote this a few years back.
tiba tiba terjumpa blk and rasa mcm nak post.

ala, saya kan yang suka drama tu

Moe is injured.
A stupid mabuk psychopath who drives a huge lorry hit my car.
I was driving in my own happy little world, when Moe kena gesek from the side.

Dah la makan lane orang,
langgar kereta orang,
buat muka tak de perasaan pulak tu.

I dont think the driver even noticed that he scraped my car.
Dah la it was in the middle of a right turning so i couldnt shout and curse at the driver,
even if i wanted to.


Muka Moe dah ada jerawat batu.
Kena buat plastic surgery.

yes, ini cliche

Surrounded by so many people.
Yet ive never felt so alone.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

the story behind the flooding

ok so this is the story.

this is the reason why i flooded my blog yesterday.

In the office, we use Microsoft Outlook to send emails and shit.

A few Fridays ago, i came to the office all jolly and cheerful and opened my mail. Daily routine.

There was an email from somebody ive never even heard.

There were attachments by the name 'amoi cantik', 'mcm Fasha Sandha'. you know. along those lines. I saw that the email was forwarded to all staff in the entire company.

The moment i clicked on the attachment, one of the bosses that sits behind me shouted 'Tashaaaaaaa...jangan bukak!!!!' which made me turn around and look at her.

The moment i turned back to the pc, a girl with her legs spread open and untrimmed bushes were staring me back at my face. Stunned because it wasnt what i expected to look at first thing in the morning, i closed the window.

After i calmed down, i wanted to open the other few attachments, but i was aware that the entire department was still looking at me for my reaction, i changed my mind and deleted the email.

Immediately after that, i remembered that the email was sent to the entire company. Boy was that guy in a deep shit.

He just got fired two days ago. Along with the guy who forwarded the mail to him in the first place.

And now theyre checking our pcs for personal things. Ive just deleted about 200plus songs and loads of pics. Bugger huh?

Yeah, so itu lah story saya. :)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

lucky im in love with my bestfriend

so yeah im totally flooding my own blog.
but biar la kan.

here's a lil something that i dont wanna lose jugak.
metaphorically and literally.

p/s : dah clear dah pc office. :)

second part


there's a reason behind this, i promise

long stoooory. ill tell u about it.
i have to clear my pc of all personal thingamajigs.
id just like to post them here so i can still view it after it has been deleted.
so here are a bunch of POSTSECRETS that kept me entertained at work.

plastic surgery

yeah tell me about it.
another research gone wrong.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


dearest friends,
i was doing some 'research' on chemicals.
and ETHYL CHLORIDE was one of them.

Ethyl Chloride is commonly used as refrigerant, aerosol spray, and anaesthetic.
Though it has been discovered that there is a more 'recreative' use for it.

based on Wikipedia,
it is said that it is used as an inhalant during sexual activity for an intense several-minute-long high that results in a prolonged orgasm.
I guess they forgot to mention that while you're orgasming (is there such a word?), you'd be laughing ur ass off.

Before you get too excited,
breathing in its vapors at 15% concentration or higher can often lead to FATALITY.

To whom it may concern,
please check your can for the concentration details
and see if you're on the dying list or not.

Last word from me, be careful. :D
For the first time ever, i woke up at 530am.
So tak Tasha kan?

Im at the office by 720 and got stuck talking to the office geek.
(Pssh. I hope he doesnt read this, Haha)

I kept thinking about last weekend and how it left me elated and gembira.
I got a flower and a love confession(both from different guys). Thanks to Valentine's.

I skipped work yesterday cuz i was so wiped out.
So i came to work today bearing bribes in the form of chocolates and free mascaras.
Thank God my mom is an editor who gets free makeup by the load.

Monday, February 16, 2009

wasted weekend

it turned out to be an awesome weekend after all.

To a certain someone,
thanks for making it better for me.
I hope it was better for u as well.
You know i love you.

To the LG,
pening aku tak habis lagi.
Im still treading on clouds right now.


On another totally unrelated note,
I have a new Nano! Wheeeeeee! Tapi i just realized that 4 gigs isnt enough.
Tamak kan?

Saturday, February 14, 2009


sedih nya sangat.

malam ni malam valentines. 
saya tak pergi candlelight dinner.
saya tak pergi tengok wayang.
saya tak pergi main pasir tepi beach.
saya tak dating pun tahun ni.

saya tengok gambar dia dengan dia.
saya sedih.
saya sedih sangat sangat sangat.

tipu! awak orang tak tahu sedih mcm mana.
sebab saya konon konon je macam okay depan awak orang.
tapi saya sedih nak meletup kat dalam.

saya sayang dia.
sangat sangat.

saya tak nak hilang lagi sekali.
tak hilang kan? 
kan ke tak????

kena tipu dengan diri sendiri

saya ingat kan senang.
rupa nya susah jugak kan?

Friday, February 13, 2009

snail mail

I guess I have been kind of depressed this past few weeks.
And i have been trying my goddamn best to hide it.
Maybe physically it was semi-successful but i guess it shows in my writing that im miserable.

So i cant tell you how much it made me wanna cry(of happiness of course) when i woke up this morning to a HUGE envelope lying still on my table.
And all the way from France lagi tu.

Reading what the Three Musketeers wrote, it really made my day.
Thanks you guys(especially Nico!) for such a heartfelt snail mail. You made me smile with your words(even if some words are completely incomprehensible. haha)

Thank you. Really.
big cheers for the three musketeers.

p/s: i guess it's true what they say about you cant change the whole world, but u can certainly make a difference to someone's world. :)

Thursday, February 12, 2009

when you get what i mean

"Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you"
"My life would suck without you
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go"
-kata Kak Kelly Clarkson

"But I can't move on,
Cause that means forgetting, forgetting everything we had,
Instead I keep running, keep running, I keep running back.
Cause I keep forgetting, forgetting you treat me so bad,
So I keep on coming, keep coming, I keep coming back."
"But I know that what we both share is real,
And I've been willing to deal,
With the way that you're making me feel."
-kata Cik Jessica Mauboy

Boleh geng la kita!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Oh baby you crack me up


Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Help! A Psycho is Following Us!!

Our movie was in an hour's time.
With a bubble tea in hand, we walked out of the shopping mall and tried to find benches to sit on.
There were none.

I suggested sitting at Starbucks.
But Aisha refused.
Takut kena halau.

And we saw this secluded little place that probably sells overpriced pastries.
There was a long-haired guy sitting by himself, reading a book.
It didnt look like he ordered anything.

Being the cheapskate we are, we found ourselves an empty table.
We played cards, sedut udara segar a bit, and lied to the waitress saying that we are waiting for a friend before we order anything.

Out of nowhere, the long haired stranger from the other table came over and asked to borrow a lighter.
Then he asked us about the card game we were playing.

Before we so much as blinked, he had made himself comfortable in one of the empty chairs and asked to join us playing cards.
He was talking to Aisha almost the entire time.
He even took the liberty of ordering us cappucinos and pastries. Which thank god, he paid for.

When it was time for our movie, we excused ourselves laju laju(in the attempt to run away from him).
Too bad for us, he decided to join us instead.
He walked with us all the way to the movie and bought himself a ticket.

After the movie, he waited for us in front of the door and suggested that we go for another drink.
Which we simultaneously rejected.
We told him we had to rush home and practically ran to the car.

Serious shit ive never met anybody like that in my entire life. Ngehh.

p/s: He asked for Aisha's number that night. Good thing i taught her how to lie. :)

Friday, February 6, 2009

Paan ni suka sgt tag orang laa!

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you.
At the end, choose six people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.
Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you.
Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.
16 new bits for my stalkers. Wahaha.

1. I truly believe that Come On Closer by Jem is the ultimate sex song.
2. I talk to myself when i dont think anybody is listening.
3. I have a newfound love for toilet papers.
4. I am crazy about the number 7. So if u wanna try and crack my passwords, thats a good start. Though now that ive published this, it could simply be reverse psychology.
5. I love my family but im too darned egoistical to admit it to their face.
6. I used to bite my toenails. Gross. I know.
7. I like to believe that i'm different than others.
8. Though i havent been properly diagnosed, i believe that i suffer from a minor case of attention seeking personality disorder. Freaky uhh?
9. In Ramadhan, I dont stop gossiping about others.
10. I love reading PostSecret to see how many of the secrets match my own.
11. I truly truly love my close friends. They are the reason i'm still where i am now and not lying in grave instead.
12. I dont act out when im PMSing. Ill be happy or emotional regardless of the time of the month.
13. I spend more than i can afford to.
14. I have high tolerance for things.
15. They say LOVE makes people do stupid things. You wouldnt believe how much in love i am in that case.
16. I learn something new about myself each time i do one of these stupid surveys tag thing.
So for that, thanks Paan. Hahaha.
I am tagging:
- Iylia Elena because I want to know more
- Nurul Aain because I want to see what else is there that i dont already know
- Dzulhazmi Shaarin because I am always interested
- Azik because you're my brother
- Ainnabilah because ur full of surprises
- and anyone who feels like discovering something new about themselves.

Stop giving me a grief about it! Nah la, here's the other version.

1. You marry a woman expecting she won’t change – and she does.

2. What do you do when a man steals your wife? The best revenge is to let him keep her.

3. Why haven’t woman been put on the moon ? – because it doesn’t need cleaning yet.

4. Never let your woman's mind wander – they’ll overthink unnecessary things and give you grief about it.

5. Go for the younger woman. You might as well, they shave off your money anyway.

6. Women are all the same - they just have different shapes and sizes, so that you can tell them apart.

7. With women, love is entirely a matter of chemistry: which is why a woman treats you like toxic waste.

8. A happy marriage is a matter of giving and taking – the husband gives and the wife takes.

9. Best way to get a woman to do something is to suggest that she is too old for it.

10. Love is blind, but marriage is deaf and mute as well.

11. If you want a woman who is committed to you, make sure you’re a multi-millionaire.

12. Scientists in the USA revealed that beer contains small traces of female hormones. To prove their theory, they gave 100 men 12 pints of beer and observed that all 100 men started talking nonsense and couldn’t drive.

13. If she asks what sort of books you're interested in, tell her Playboy.

14. A woman doesn’t care what her man gets up to when he’s away from her – as long as he doesn’t have fun.

15. Sadly, all women are created equal.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

shakes head

1. Don't imagine you can change a man - unless he's in nappies.

2. What do you do if your boyfriend walks out?
You shut the door.

3. If they put a man on the moon - they should be able to put them all up there.

4. Never let your man's mind wander - it's too little to be out alone.

5. Go for the younger man. You might as well, they never mature anyway.

6. Men are all the same - they just have different faces, so that you can tell them apart.

7. Definition of a bachelor: a man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable.

8. Women don't make fools of men - most of them are the do-it-yourself types.

9. Best way to get a man to do something is to suggest he is too old for it.

10. Love is blind, but marriage is a real eye-opener.

11. If you want a committed man, look in a mental hospital.

12. The children of Israel wandered around the desert for 40 years. Even in Biblical times, men wouldn't ask for directions.

13. If he asks what sort of books you're interested in, tell him cheque books.

14. Remember a sense of humor does not mean that you tell him jokes, it means that you laugh at his.

15. Sadly, all men are created equal.
my dream last night reached a whole new level of weirdness.

It was Friday.
Time Friday Prayers.

I was making out with Zul in the middle of the living room.
God knows rumah mana ntah.

And out of nowhere came this two Pak Haji.
We scrambled out of the house. But the Pak Haji said that they werent there to catch us.

And i freaked out trying to find my car to make a getaway.
But i couldnt find my car.
It has been stolen.

Then the Pak Hajis helped me to find the car.
Which was really awkward even in the dream.

And the next thing i know, i was late for a final exam paper.
The subject was CONTINUOUS IMPROVEMENT PROGRAMME which incidentally is a department at my workplace.


Now now anybody out there who's good at interpreting dreams???

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

whether or not you can take it

no matter how bad you think you've got it,
others have had worst.

snake shopping

Last Friday, i went shopping.
But not for clothes,
and not at a shopping mall.

It was about 2am
And we were literally in the middle of the forest
My entire body stank of insect repellent.

With a measly torchlight
and a sad excuse of an aqua shoe
I hiked like ive never hiked before
(which actually is easy to do, as i really have NEVER hiked before)

five minutes from the journey
and we found our first victim to be kept captive
a golden huntsman
a furry golden spider
with hairy legs.

and as we went further in the jungle
*scary music here*
we captured more and more animals
geckos, lizards(not the ones u see at home)
spiders, frogs and snakes!!

at one point,
my friend saw a grasshopper that he'd like to kidnap
to be a meal to his pet reptile
he was stopped short by another guy
telling us that the insect isnt actually a
but in fact,
a pelesit.

it got darker as we travelled further
until it became pitch black
it made me wonder how those 3gp couples were brave enough to get it on
in the middle of jungles and semak samun.
scary weyh.

i got bitten by a few leeches
fell down on slippery rocks
hyperventilated when we got lost in the woods

but the moment we caught the pretty pretty snake
it all became really worth it
it was either a
checkered garter snake
or a
checkered keelback watersnake

either way its the prettiest slithering reptile
ok maybe not the prettiest
but it has golden checkered shapes along its body

so yeah
it was worth it
fucking worth it

next session
who wants to join in
angkat tangan

p/s: sorry takde pics. im at the office. tak blh nak upload. pergi google sendiri ehh? :)

Monday, February 2, 2009


Seperti kata bulan
Yang indah itu, tak semestinya rupawan
Yang dicerca itu, tak semestinya hodoh
Mereka yang kata
Kita yang percaya
Seperti kata angin
Kalau kuat, tak mungkin goyah
Kalau semangat, tak mungkin rebah
Seperti kata aku
Dibuang tak bermakna tak sayang
Dilepas tak bermakna tak mahu